ended up watching it on the couch, and I was looking at the image
on the screen, and for that half hour before they fell, I was like,
Oh my god, they're going to fall down. They're going to fall down.
And I was like, You guys, you don't understandthat's like
our entire campus being in those buildings. I felt like I was re-playing
something I had already seen when they started falling. And I started
after they fell, I started having these visions in my head of walking
down the street and being on the subway, and seeing facespeople
that I was around for four years, and they'd become familiar. And
how many hundreds and thousands of people did I walk by. I just
was like, I know I know somebody. And when I finally was able to
get hold of somebody, I can't believe it, but no one on my block
was killed. And I just can't believe that, because there were so
many people that worked there. I felt very isolated by being out
here, being so far away.
of the things I found really disturbing was as soon as it happened,
somebody was starting to use the graphics. Somebody's job was to
do graphics, and somebody's job was to get music. And I found that
revolting, very upsetting.
are things that I look at in our culture and I'm just sickened by.
And I think that this event has given a little bit more of a razor
edge to those kind of things. And yet, on the other hand, there
are things that I embrace so much, and take for granted. And those
things have also been heightened. I was just thinking about it the
other day. I was walking into studio, and it was like, This is what
my day is; the only reason it's this is because I live in the country
I live in. This could be a totally different thing. And so, it goes
back and forth.
think one of the main reasons why I started using salt is that it's
such a container of the word grief for me. And that it's such an
excellent material to use metaphorically because of that.
to add the water so that the salt would dissolve enough, and basically
rebuild itself. As the water evaporated, it would re-crystallize
and then become more structural. So, in a way, it was destroying
to build. And they became very rigid, very hard. And they weighed
350 pounds each, and I had to knock them down to move them. And
that was something very strange to doto take my sledgehammer
to them. And I did that by myself. It was something that I knew
I didn't want anybody around.
floor ended up being the most fascinating to me, because it was
so much about that idea of, This has not left; it's just gone some
place else and re-grown. And it was just so beautifulwhat
happened on the floor. These big flat crystals just sparkled, so
I was really caught up in the visual aspect of it.
of the things that it did was brought people to a stillness. A stillness
that opens up kind of connections or relationshipspeople looking
at this and seeing different things. Seeing Lot's wife, seeing columns,
seeing two figures next to each other, seeing this dark stoic straight
objects and then this kind of spilling of beauty down below. Beautiful
and sadthose two things kind of came up a lot. But I think
what I want people to leave it with is that idea of this connection
to something that they don't quite understand, and that realization
of something that they don't understand.